Sunday, August 31, 2008

Down Down Down

Everyone is making me feel so happy and loved and so full of support. The father is freaking out- rightly so, I suppose...but I really wish he was acting more like everyone else. Or I just want him gone. I know that sounds terrible, but his negativity is bringing me way way down.

Friday, August 29, 2008

Incoherent Ramblings AKA dude. I'm tired.

     So all day today my close friends (who drove in as soon as I told them I was pregnant) and I have been discussing different options. I realize I should be talking about this stuff with the father, but he has a show tonight and tomorrow afternoon, and I would rather talk about all of this afterwards when he doesn't have to worry about that stuff. So he will be here tomorrow afternoon and we will be going to Plan Parenthood to get information on WIC and other such things that we will be needing. And a blood test. To be 100.5 % sure. That was suggested to me by a few people. I am lucky to have so many friends that are so supportive. I will tell my parents next weekend I think. Or the weekend after. I know the sooner the better... But I am a bit worried. 

    Anyway. Why I decided to write this post. I feel like I am in a play right now. Any pregnancy related thing I say sounds like a line that I memorized from a play. Is that normal? It doesn't seem real. Just like a play. So strange.

                  *Lacey Jane*

 "Don't be jealous. I'm going to put in a tampon."
"your mom!" "you ARE a mom!"
-me and Heather (the Godmother)
"Can I be cute and hope for a boy?"
"Can I be cuter and pick out names?"
-me and Jamieshaie

thank you girls for dropping your lives at such short notice to come shower me with love, hugs, sympathy, jokes, and much needed support.

Here I Am At Schoooooooool!

I am at my very dear friend, Jamies, apartment to type this... It will not be long. I just wanted to say that I am doing fairly well... Living by myself in my own apartment. It is fun and lonely and sometimes really sad, but overall I do enjoy it. School is going well. Hectic as always... I get a computer on Friday so that will help a LOT. I hate computer labs because they are so uncomfortable and the clicking sound gets to me. Jamie is making breakfast so I am off to enjoy that. I love you all. Keep me in your prayers, as I am actually going through a strange and new time in my life that I will talk more about later.

Lots of love!

Test 2....

So, today is the day I found out that uh... Well. I guess I'm pregnant. I've taken two tests and have a third to take as well (thanks Jamieshaie!), but so far the first two have gone straight to a big fruitful + sign.

I will start off by saying that yes, this baby is an accident. A mistake? No way. An accident though? Yes. Obviously, as an unmarried junior in college (so close!), this isn't the best time for me to have a baby. I have talked to...well...strangers in my classes who have babies, and they are there. Still in school. They're poor, they're tired, but they're happy, and they're making it. So I figure if they can do it so can I. That's really all I have to say for now. Please feel free to give me any support, advise, or pleasant comments. No, I do not know what I am doing, but I do have a basic idea. I'm not completely clueless, but I am not so stubborn as to think I know everything.

Have a good day...

Monday, August 25, 2008

3 Things I Love About Living In My Own Apartment

1. I came home today and immediately upon entry took off my pants. Immediately.
2. I got to choose where the silverware drawer would be. In a nice practical place. It always bothers me when silverware drawers are in odd locations.
3. "I've got to come see you in your big girl pants." -Jamie (who also teaches pre school during the summer) It's true. I'm a big girl now. And I love it.

Thursday, August 21, 2008

Public School Schedule Confuses Me

Public School Schedule Confuses Me.

Status Units Grading Grade Deadlines
Enrolled 3.00 Graded Academic Calendar Deadlines
Class Nbr Section Component Days & Times Location Instructor Start/End Date
1280 001 Credit MoWe 3:00PM - 4:20PM Gab 104 Wang,Zuoming 8/25/2008 - 12/12/2008
MoWe 3:00PM - 4:20PM Audb 317 Staff 8/25/2008 - 12/12/2008
MoWe 3:00PM - 4:20PM Wh 313 Staff 8/25/2008 - 12/12/2008
MoWe 3:00PM - 4:20PM Wh 318 Staff 8/25/2008 - 12/12/2008
MoWe 3:00PM - 4:20PM Wh 117 Staff 8/25/2008 - 12/12/2008
1284 204 Rec Wh 117 Wang,Zuoming 8/25/2008 - 12/12/2008

someone please tell me why there are so many on my schedule... it is like this for every class. It is really confusing. Do I just go to the top one? I don't know.

Sunday, August 17, 2008

More To Come...

Moving to Denton on Wednesday or Thursday. I'll update as soon as I get a computer up there...