Sunday, August 30, 2009

And Today:

Welcome to the world, Samantha Marie. My cousins new baby, so my new second cousin (Cuz cuz :)

And now I can't help but cry.

Saturday, August 29, 2009

One Year Ago

One year ago:

7:45am: Woke up to get ready for 9am class. Woke up early for no reason. Lived alone in an apartment that I both loathed and loved.


6:45am: Woke up early for no reason. Knot in my throat.

One year ago:

8am: took the pregnancy test I promised I would take for Lloyd because I was due to start my period the day before and I had not. My periods were like clockwork so he was worried.


7am: Rolled over and tried not to think about it.

One year ago:

8:03am: just stared at it.


7:03am: filled with every tiny detailed memory about that day a year ago. I remember what my apartment smelled like. I remember who I called. In what order. Stoically getting ready for school. Remembered every thought I had that morning.

One year ago today:

Not one tear all day.


As few tears as possible. Tried very hard not to cry all day. Had an okay day. It's always there in the back of my mind. Especially today.

Wednesday, August 19, 2009

Oh Life! Look at you, looking up!!

It is (not quite) official!! Callie (older sister, for those readers who haven't memorized all 5 of my siblings names) and I will be moving in together on September 5th!!! WOOOOOOO!!!! Callie found a townhome and I happened to know someone who lived in the one hmm, ADJACENT to ours! So that's awesome, we will soon be Zachs' neighbors (Zach is one of my favorite people ever, for pictures of Zach, scroll down to the camping pictures. He is the one with the beautiful girlfriend and I love them both so much and I can't wait to be neighbs!!!!) for a mere $325/month (each). SO needless to say, both Callie and I are really excited, and saving our money as best we can to have the sweetest most wonderful home together. Just one more time- WOOOOOOO!!!!!!!

*Lacey Jane*

Monday, August 17, 2009

In Love

....with igoogle, allowing me to post directly from my iPhone. It may take a bit longer to type, bit at least I don't have to get up from laying down on the bed, to sitting at the desk that is right next to said bed. Wooooo Technology!!!!!!!

Remember That One Time?

Remember that one time I promised a Lloyd saga and then instead I got a puppy and never really saga'd about him?

I am now here to REPROMISE the Lloyd saga! Only read it if you want confirmation that Lloyd sucks. Because once I tell you the WHOLE Lloyd story (now that it is, very thankfully, very over), you will for sure hate him. Or you will say you don't hate anyone, and you will pray for him. I will take that to mean you hate him.

Not right now though because I am at Jamies' sisters' house, and I should go be more social.

Hey! Love to all!

Friday, August 14, 2009

Trial Seperation

Growing up I was always very close to both of my parents. I think that is the best way to start this post... While a lot of children would say they liked their Mom more, or their Dad more, I could never choose. Both of my parents had so much love and support to offer, and they were both hilarious and fun. I could never choose between them when I was younger. I knew how lucky I was to have two parents that were still together. I understood this at a young age, because Doug and Annie's dad lived in Austin, and Callie and Slade lived with their mom in Irving, so that left Dave and I with both our parents to have 100% of the time. I knew that made me lucky. I know that still makes me lucky, to have grown up for 21 years with both my parents together.
I don't know how much I have blogged about this, but in May of this year, my mother gave my father 2 weeks to move out. This surprised him more than it surprised me. I don't know how surprising it was to any of my other 5 siblings, but I think I have trained myself to roll with my moms punches, due to the fact that she used to direct them toward me more than anyone.
I feel a lot of different feelings about this. It has been almost 4 months now, and I have just tried my best to stay away. I live with Eric at his parents house (he moved home last month after the lease on his house was up, to save money). Before I stayed with Eric all the time though, I was in the middle of all the parental drama, mainly through my moms side. I started kind of hating my dad because of the things I knew he was saying to her. Recently though, I became closer to my dad again and I started talking to him more about "the situation" and my heart pretty much breaks for him. Not that I can take his side, because they both have good points, but I know it hurts more to be dumped than to dump someone. It just does. I am proud of my mom for doing something that she really wanted to do for HERSELF. But I ache for my poor dad, who doesn't need people to feel sorry for him, but really I can't help it.

I don't know where this post is going... Eric and I had dinner with my dad last night. Without looking at the sadness and pain in his eyes, he looks great. He has lost 30 something pounds by going on walks and ONLY eating healthy foods and drinking lots of water. He is trying so hard to show my mom that he is fine, but one look into his eyes and you know that he is not fine.

I am so sick of both of them though. Sick of them. It is selfish of me to be sick of them, but I can't stand hearing he-said she-said story after story. I hear the same story at least twice, sometimes they will both forget that I have heard it and I will hear it twice more. Then after it all they always say "I shouldn't be talking to you about this.... I just don't want you to hear his/her side and think I am a (crazy bitch) (raving lunatic)." For the record- my mom IS a crazy bitch and my dad IS a raving lunatic- but not all the time, so why should I judge? I have been both of those things before...

Ohhhugughghghgh the frustration! My life is going really well right now, but those two are driving me insane. AND everyone else.... all the other kids too. It's not just me... Both my parents called and told me that my brother Doug is depressed right now. So I went over to see him, like a good sister, and he didn't seem any more depressed than the rest of us about the situation. So the only reason they thought he was depressed was because they were making him that way. Doug is too nice to say "stop talking to me about it." Although he will say "stop talking to Lacey and Dave about it."

Okay. I think that's all I need to get off my hydrocodone-laden chest right now. Thanks for reading. And for the empathy/sympathy, which I am sure you are feeling.

*Lacey Jane*

Tuesday, August 11, 2009

DnD Campout Pictures!

Over the weekend I went camping with my Dungeons and Dragons group. We had so much fun. I wish I could blog about every detail, but I really can't, unfortunately. I CAN, however, show some pictures... After seeing these pictures, I gave every couple an award based on the pictures. There were three couples and three single guys. The first couple I awarded were Carlos and Andrea. Andrea took most of the pictures so we had to get her on the other side. They win the Sweetest Couple Award, because they are the sweetest couple. No one calls each other baby, sweetie, honey, etc, and means it, more than these two. It would be annoying, but it's very sweet. Here they are in all their sweetness:

The second award I decided on was the Most Beautiful Couple Award for Zach and Joey. Honestly these two cannot take a bad picture (Eric and I are King and Queen of taking bad pictures)... Zach and Joey are two of my favorite people in the world, and I was so blessed to get to hang out with them for awhile this weekend:

(I was blowing bubbles at them)

The third award goes to me and my wonderful pale boyfriend. We win the Most Sunburned Couple Award.

And here are some other pictures from the campout. Keep in mind that we were all sorts of fucked up and having a good time, pretty much all weekend. So these pictures aren't the best- but they are the best we could do under our circumstances :o)


Group Shot at the end.... I need to edit all of these pictures so that you can actually see them, but that will have to be saved for a time when I am not on painkillers..

When Eric's hair is down and dry, it goes a few inches past his shoulders. It's so curly that when it is wet, it goes down past the middle of his back. Way longer than mine. I'm jealous.

Eric and Luke!

Half of our campsite..

Bubbles that stuck to everything! My fave.

Sean, Luke, and Zach. What a bunch of hooligans.

Eric and I watching the sunset

Joey dressed up like an indian to get into the campground spirit. That's because she's so freaking awesome that you can almost not handle it...

Monday, August 10, 2009


When I was 16 I got my wisdom teeth out, and the Doctor told me that I need to fix the right side of my mouth or when I am old it is going to be bad news (blablahblahsomethingsomething)... I have been trying to get this done since then. It has taken so long but finally step ONE in a three step process was completed. I got my baby tooth pulled, a bone graft, and then some gum cut from my wisdom tooth area to put over the graft. I was in a little pain all day but not much because I stayed on top of my meds. It seems like I have been waiting for this to happen for so long, and finally it is happening. The next surgery is in November. Step two: begin the implant process. They will screw a little holder thing into my bone graft and then step three will happen a couple months after that- my implant. A tooth! That looks real! That isn't a baby tooth! Woo hoo!

I am blogging to you today on a couple painkillers, so sorry if it is hazy- that's how I feel. Right now in my life I am looking for a better job (as per usual), and starting next week I will be looking for a new apartment! I will either be living with my sister Callie, my best friend Alex, or both of them. I pretty much stay with Eric every night right now, and because my car broke and then I sold it, he has been giving me rides everywhere. I haven't gotten sick of him yet, which is nice. Quite the contrary, in fact. The more I am around him the more enthralled with him I become. It is so wonderful to have a boyfriend that 1. loves me as much as I love him and 2. ACTUALLY respects me. One day I will get a picture of us up so you can see him. He is spectacular, and even my entire family really likes him. My mom calls me sometimes to applaud my choice of boyfriend this time around. I finally have a boyfriend I can brag about and not have to make excuses for, or bag on for being crappy. Woo hoo!

Hope everyone is having a good life right now! I still keep up with ALL my blog buddies- I just haven't been commenting as much. That will have to change :o)


*Lacey Jane*

"Lacey. Eric is the cutest and best guy ever."
"Thanks Mom. I do my best."
"Are you going to marry him?"
"Yeah Mom."
"Oh good. Is he Catholic?"
"Will he pretend to be for me?"
"He's the best."