Sunday, December 30, 2007
Interterm. Working out every day, rehearsal after dinner, party every night. Every day was an awesome day. Ashley and I were basically connected at the hip, because I didn't have any bedding I spend the majority of my nights with her. Elliott and I started dating at the end of January, and that surprised basically everybody. Even me. I was really happy though.
Godspell went down this month, and my parents and Dave came up and they all met Elliott. Parents liked him for the most part- Dave? Not so much. But I liked him and that's all that really mattered to me. Prince performed at halftime for the superbowl and it was so amazing it gave me goosebumps. Elliott shared the love for Prince and his mom sent the Purple Rain DVD...haha...that's what I remember from February...
Spring Break was good..I came home with Nicolette and Lindsay and we had a good time going shopping and hanging out and seeing Whitney and Mckinzie in Ft Worth. I missed Elliott a lot, and was happy to get back to KS to see him.
It snowed in Kansas on my 19th birthday. I had big plans to have a really long exciting night- but Elliott took me out to dinner in Salina and I ate so much and got so tired that I was in bed by 10. The next night we had more of a party, but I felt old for not sticking through my actual birthday night. I went on a choir trip in April too, and Elliott missed me so much that his roommates got sick of him talking about it. That is the Elliott I fell in love with, and I was never happier.
Graduation was so sad. I cried when I saw Sally in her gown and cap in the morning when the choir sang. She was beautiful. Elliott and I were a tiny bit late for the actual ceremony because he is such a woman when it comes to getting ready for stuff. We walked in right in front of the graduates and sat in the back. Sally and Amanda and Josh all graduated and it was reallllly sad. Sally and Amanda had a party afterwards and a lot of people went. I cried as I went around and had my picture taken with my faves. My dad got there and it was time for me to say bye. gahhh it was so sad. Dad, Elliott, and I went out to dinner before dad and I left. I hated saying bye to Elliott- but I knew I would see him over the summer, so it wasn't toooooo too bad.
Got a job at the airport. Very lame. Went to Houston and met Elliott's family and immediately loved them all. I worked a lot...hung out with Jamie as much as possible. Mom was really sick and in and out of the hospital. It was really sad.
Still working at the airport...Spend the 4th of July at Elliott's, which was really nice. It was rainy so the fireworks show was canceled...we still shot some off at a friend of his house, and they were awesome. I went back to Houston for Elliott's birthday. I went skydiving and loved it. I acquired a fake ID to ride in the stretch hummer all over Houston with him and a bunch of his friends. We convinced his mom to go too- and for the most part it was really fun. At some point over the summer I went to visit Heather in Austin. I don't remember what month that was- but I met Ernesto and Heather and I played scrabble because we are awesome. It was really fun and I was really glad to see her.
Started school. Alone. Immediately fell in love with my wonderful Roommate, who I lovingly refer to as Roommate, but really her name is Laura. Went to Houston every couple weekends, but made a couple friends and had a good time in Nac. Molly had puppies, and boy were they CUTE.
Really tired of SFgAy by now. Everything was so dirty, and I didn't feel safe anywhere. Elliott came to visit and we had fun. Roommate is still awesome and I am thankful for her. I become more and more unhappy with each passing day. Classes aren't too bad, but some of them are really overwhelming. I am really really missing my Kansas friends- as well as Elliott.
I went to a gay Halloween party here in Dallas with my sister, Annie. We dressed up as musical bums. We had finger cymbals and drums- we took requests, and wore "Will work for.." signs. One guy thought I was hilarious and told me for Halloween I should be Bald Britney. I thought about it- then ended up doing it. I would have won the costume contest had the cops not crashed the party... I spent actual Halloween in Houston though, and we had a mini party at Elliott's house. I pwned him in scrabble- the real reason we broke up, probably.
Went to Austin and partied it up with Heather. We always have a good time. It was awesome to see her and Ernesto was so generous and kind the whole time. It was really fun. I went to Houston a couple times this month too (surprise!). Thanksgiving went well with relatively no drama. The whole family was here, and it snowed. None of it stuck, but it was still lovely.
I took my final trip to Houston on December 1st or so. Elliott and I got into a really big fight, which is always fun. I left on a kind of awkward/bad note- and we ended up breaking up later that week. I am still not very happy about it, but there really isn't anything I can do that I know of- so there is not much use fretting over it (even though sometimes I just can't help it). I said goodbye to Roommate this month, and I miss her every day. I also said goodbye to Cortney (another srgay friend) and I miss her in my life too. I really miss my Kansas friends, but hopefully I will go see them next month! I left SfgAy and it has been...interesting...so far, living at home again. I have spent the majority of my time with Heather, and I do not know what I will do when she leaves me and goes back to Austin. I have a couple jobs lined up that I will be starting in January.
All in all? On a scale of 1-10, this year was a 6. Not too great but not terrible. I met and fell in love with a whole other family in another city and they basically got snatched away from me. I have small hopes that I will see them again someday, and I put a lot into those small hopes. I fell in love with a wonderful man who changed his whole life, and seemingly his outlook on life when he moved home. I don't know what happened, but I guess it didn't work out- so in and out of a relationship this year...not my favorite thing. I got immensely closer to Heather, Aida and Alex- something I didn't know was possible- but I am so thankful for it. My mom and I's relationship fell apart and patched back up 100 times this year- and I wish it would stay patched. I changed my whole life a million times and still have little idea of what to do. I feel more unhealthy and more pessimistic than I ever have.
Tomorrow is a New Year, and although I would really like that to hold some significance, the truth is- it's just another day, just like yesterday, and just like today. Nothing will change until I make it change- but I am finding it more and more difficult to just be happy. Off to see Dr. Katzen this week and just talk some stuff over with him. Wish me luck.
And have a Happy New Year.
"I don't know where I belong, but I'll be moving on."
Saturday, December 29, 2007
Lisa Kudrow plays Holly's best pal, Denise- and I don't know HOW they did it, but SOMEONE or SOMEONES obviously followed me around for MONTHS without me knowing, because every DAMN line she said was either something I HAVE said, something I say REGULARLY, or something I most definitely WOULD say in those certain situations. I cannot tell you how many times both Heather and Jess looked at me in amazement as if to say "it looks like Lisa Kudrow but if I were blind I would swear it was you.." or something..
I didn't like it because it made me sad. I liked it because of reasons unknown. I will probably never watch it again, but I am glad I did. No regrets.
....Harry Connick Jr REALLY IS LUMPY and UNATTRACTIVE, and it is amusing because I don't think Hilary Swank is much to look at either (except damn, what a nice bod). However, because both of them were- well, normal looking- it made the movie more real and more comfortable, because let's face it- in real life, not everyone looks like Jessica Alba, Jennifer Aniston, or Halle Berry (except you, Aida
Mixed review? Maybe. But give me a break. It's late.
"I can definitely see you calling me to tell me I am not invited to your wedding if I was ignoring you completely.."
-Heath and I.
Thursday, December 27, 2007
Tuesday, December 25, 2007
Monday, December 24, 2007
Saturday, December 22, 2007
Sunday, December 16, 2007
Can Mandy Moore do a movie and....*gasp*...NOT sing in it?!
I am watching "Because I Said So," and I have a sneaking suspicion that she may bust out in song at any given second.
aw but so far- cute movie, really.
Yeah. She sang. ugh. Pretty voice, Mandy Moore! Tired of hearing it in every movie you're in. But okay.
Still though. Cute movie.
Friday, December 14, 2007
I missed my doggies :o)
Wednesday, December 12, 2007
Saturday, December 8, 2007
I am single-girl again. Ugh...
and I am hurt- but not mad. Neither of us see the end to the long distance, and so maybe one day we will find ourselves better suited for each other, but right now- elliott has problems that he needs to address, and I need to focus on school and my life more...it really really....really sucks. But that's life sometimes.
Friday, December 7, 2007
Hmm. How to answer this question.
It is on a semi-daily basis that Laura asks me how to spell a word. The most recent one was "Lacey, how do you spell definitely?" yesterday...or maybe the day before. I will shoot out the letters faster than we can blink, and our lives will go about being awesome.
In the bulk of the school year, she would procrastinate the hell out of writing any and all papers....and she had quite a few of them. So no- Laura does not blog, although she does read mine- and laugh and recall our amazing times together.
Ask me to multiply any number by 12 or anything above it and I will tilt my head, furrow my brow, and bark at you- but Laura knows math without really thinking about it. That is why she helped me with my math homework. A lot.
"Laura who is Factor and what function does he have?!"
She does math. I do english. We're a perfect match.
"I look like a man."
"I look like a lesbian"
"Let's just get our food to go."
-Laura and I at lunch today. Then we get into the caf:
"We're out of to go boxes." -lunch lady
*confused, dumb stare from both Laura and myself*
"So...what you're saying is....we have to eat our food....here..?" -me
so we did. we snagged a miraculously empty table- and it stayed miraculously empty because well- remember what we looked like. goodtimes with laura. i will surely miss her.
Monday, December 3, 2007
So basically- Here I am back in Nac after an eventful weekend in Houston (Elliott and I will be in town THIS weekend instead of this last weekend...obviously..). I have..
Why do I do this?
I have this desire to inform you all of something quite unfortunate- and unless you can pretend I am a wee baby right now, please refrain from reading for your sanity and my pride (What pride?) (oh yeah..).
..I have a diaper rash.
(Or something like it)
Laugh it up- laughsters- but the thing is- I have been getting them all semester. I go to Houston or Dallas or Austin, and the tender raw achy part... is immediately cured and happy and not sore.
I come back and after two or three pee-pee trips....there it is again.
I swear it is not some ST(D)(I), but...
Sometimes it bleeds a tiny drop of blood when I wipe.
I am not a rough wiper. I am actually quite gentle. But it's just that the damn toilet paper in the bathroom....well..it is so cheap you can't even buy it at the grocery store. I would be glad for a 42 pack of Bath Tissue for 2.99 at Sack N Save....The toilet paper you buy to decorate the trees of the less fortunate. GLAD FOR A PACK OF THAT.
Cherish your Charmin, folks. Adore your Angelsoft (2ply!!), Cuddle your Cottonelle closely...you make look insane for a time- but at least you do not have one of these (or something like it).
"Lacey- just don't wipe with the bumpier side!"
"It has another side?!"
-Roommate and I...she's smart sometimes- so maybe I will try this feeling of the toilet paper before wiping myself...apparently, there is a bumpier side that I just may be using...